Letra Analysis de The Cable Car Theory original

I have somehow gained this reputation for being ever optimistic,
But every time I close my eyes that's the last thing on my mind.
I somehow betrayed this relationship between me
And myself that you see, and this was my responsibility,
And now I know and I wish it all away.
It's hard to admit that even I rely upon this tested
And true excuse that never fails to fail,
'I wish it all away.'